DUTY.

It was a morning shift, It was supposed to be a six days duty in the Emergency Room of Rizal Provincial Hospital in Morong but then because of some matter that our beyond our control it turned out to be just a three days duty although we would take it up on a makeup I guess by the end of the semester. At first our impression was, Yey. We got no duty this week because of the PhilHealth Accreditation visit and of course because of the popular typhoon “Basyang”. But then having experienced what’s inside the ER and having learned a lot. I regret those 3 days that we were supposed in that area and learning a lot more. It’s nice to learn things especially if you can apply that in your life too not just stuck in your head and after a minute you’ll then forget it.

Having said that, I enjoyed more in this special area than in the ward. It was my first time to be exposed here In the ER and I was really surprised on what I have seen. It makes me want to learn more and to aspire to be competent enough to handle patients with their needs. Although I know I’m not that good in skills though I’m striving hard to be since having a left dominant hand is a matter of issue for me.

I have lots of firsts in this rotation, want me to enumerate some? Well it was my first time to do wound care, IV insertion, my first time to see actual urinary catheterization and suturing of the head and what do you call this an elderly with BPH having urinary catheterization what's worse there was when the doctor took out this tube in the pt's genitals the blood with urine spilled off my apron and had a hard time cleaning it; it was also my first time to see patient dead on arrival and touch them and my first to witness relatives overflowing with grief and crying to death because of their loved one that passed away and can’t do anything about it. How I can feel their emotions still yearning that some miracle can make their loved one back into life. Another one, it’s really heart melting to see a patient suffering from pain like our patient who was beaten in the head. It’s really really really painful, I can hear his weep from afar while the surgeon started suturing his head even though the anesthesia wasn't still taking it's effect.

Anyway. Overall I've learned new things from this rotation.

You call it a rant.

Whenever na narerecall ko ung highschool life ko where in I joined the COTC training.

Natatawa ako. Kakaiba din kasi eh.

Well anyway, Nung sa training ko kasi, I experienced yung magpasahan ng candy, chubby or anything on your mouth sa co-trainee mo.

Can you imagine that? galing sa bibig niya then ipapasa niya sayo then ipapasa mo sa katabi mo and so on until it reached its end. Kawawa naman ung nasa dulo na trainee ano na kayang color ng candy pag dating sa kanya. Iswallow pa niya un. LIKE!

Hindi lang yan malas niyo pa kapag yung candy or chubby eh mahulog sa lapag sa semento. Woot woot. Kasi you need to get that back to your mouth and pass it again to another person.

Angsaya. lupa-lupa pa XD.

At that time, wala pa kaming pakealam sa bacteria. Kasi ang mindset namin,

We need to follow commands no matter how harsh it may be. Cool

and saka COTC trainees are considered as. pinakamababa talagang uri ng tao pagdating sa army.

I don't know if that's really true or napaka-rude lang talaga ng officers namin at that time.

Another thing that I experienced,

The officers will tell us na magdala ng food for lunch. So syempre iba-iba kami ng food na dala.

May sardines, hotdog, adobo, ham. and etc. lahat na.

At dahil we were so much loved by our officers at natutuwa sila samin.

What they did was to mix all those food na baon namin. Yea. I have a term for this. Pero ayoko ng ilagay. Msyadong pangit basta kung pareho tau ng iniicip un na un.

Aun and then ang swerte pa kasi there is one officer there na napaka harsh. He mixed those food using his bare hands. Sarap!

Then before they will allow us to eat uutusan muna nila kami na ikaskas not totally super kaskas to the point na mabalatan ka na ah. Tamang kaskas lang ng palms sa semento sa sahig and then saka kami kakain using our barehands. Sarap. kaya.

That time wala talaga kaming pakealam. Go lang!

Natatawa ako kasi nitong college na nagtake ako ng nursing saka ko narealized yung kung ilang bacteria kaya ang naingest namin nung time nung training hehe.

Well, wala namang nangyari samin. :)

Ang saya nung training. I've learned alot. Kumain sa dahon. Gumulong sa kung saan. gumapang. Mag-duck walk, me countdown sa pagkain . Lahat. Sobrang discipline.

3rd year hs ako that time at ngayon 3rdyr college na rin ako. Wew.

how time flies.. It was an experience really.

typography.

I'll just share to you guys kung ano pinagkakaabalahan ko

most of the time. Pero before pa 'to nung summer.

Lately kasi medyo busy-busyhan na ang lola mo.

Woot woot. photoshop!!!

I just put some quotes on those photography na nakikita ko from the net

So meaning I don't own those pictures baka makasuhan ako eh.

Ang ginagawa ko lang is to put those quotes in there. And make some changes.

And then ipublish sa tumblr blog ko :)

As you can see. sa lahat ng photos I have there my watermark.

serenenostalgia

me mga epal kasi on earth na kumukuha ng gawa ng iba

and then they will claim it as their own. LUL.

These are some sa mga naedit ko..

Post ko sana 'to yesterday pero ngayon ko lang ipublish.

I got frustrated kanina sa comp. lab kasi hindi ngrun ang linux ko.

So I decided to copy the toolkit na lang and try

it sa pc ko paguwi.

So aun,

when I got home as showed from the screenpic

I tried to install it again. I started from scratch.

And it became partly successful.

But then I still need to boot the BIOS chorva for

it to work out fine.

So that's what I did.

Yun nga lang.

Walang boot sequence na lumabas from the menu. I got Phoenix btw.

So I got puzzled on what will I do next.

So

I consulted my bestest friend.

Si GOOGLE

Ang napakatalinong chorva on earth. Anything under the sun alam nian. TARAY!

So aun, And I also visited the linux usb creator website and I found out there na pwede pala siyang gamitin thru virtual box chorva w/o booting the bios.

Edi sana napadali ang life.

So tnry ko na ulit. 1st boot, 2nd boot, 3rd boot chorva kasi lumalabas from the menu. Napuzzle na naman ang lola mo kasi may USB-HDD, USB-FDD at USB Zip and CDrom pa.

Anak ng pating. Ang dami namang alam ng computer nato. Mas maalam pa sakin.

I consulted na naman tuloy si bestfriend. But I ended up using trial and error.

I chose USB-HDD from the menu.

And Yehey! after ng mraming try.

Lumabas din si purple ubuntu. Success!

Syempre noh. Tao ko. Computer lang yan. Magpapakain ba ko jan?

So Aun. It took me to the ubuntu desktop and I started exploring it.

Wow ang cool. It is good to have a subject like this. Kahit papaano nagiging updated sa latest trends on technology.diba?

Astig.Yung simpleng usb akalain mo yun pwedeng mgaing live usb and have its own desktop. Ang taray!

just call it a night.

It was a weekday evening.

Around 11pm I was in junction.

I crossed the road at sumakay ng FX going to Ayala.

I told kuya manong na sa Boni ako bababa.

then he told me na ndi siya daraan ng Boni instead Edsa.

dun raw ako bababa to ride a bus going to Boni mlapit na raw un dun.

I'm not familiar sa mga places kasi lalo na pag gantong commute.

Since nasanay ako na laging mrt/lrt.

So aun I ended up trusting him. bahala na. :)

Ang sarap pala magbyahe ng gabi na kahit midnight na ang dami pa ring sasakyan tapos wala pang traffic unlike sa Antipolo kapag gantong oras na wala na msyadong masakyan ang hirap umuwi ng late . kakaasarrr. LOL.

After a 3ominute ride he then told me na Edsa na and I have to walk until mkarating ako dun sa highway wherein me mga Bus na.

So bumaba na ko ng fx at naglakad.

Imagine mgisa lang akong nglalakad sa kalye ng midnight at binabaybay ang EDSA ng naka-shorts..

I reached the highway . Going to right are bus na papuntang Cubao at Monumento

while sa kabila kapag tumawid ako Bus going to Ayala and Buendia.

Naconfused tuloy ako. Sh*t. Parang nghehesitate ako sumakay ng Bus baka mamali ako at san ako makarating.

Thanked God. I saw a gasoline station. Caltex.

I went there. Pumasok sa convenience store. and look what I've saw.

TWO MALE standing and kissing. hindi lang smack ah .french pa.

one is a foreigner and the other one is a Filipino.

napa-OW na lang ako. COOL. :)

And there, I asked two gasoline boylets.

kung paano papuntang Boni and they told me sakay lang ako ng kahit anong Bus at dadaan yun ng Boni. the landmark is Robinson's Pioneer. Tama si Manong fx driver :)

Actually, I know naman talaga how to go in Boni Ave. but the thing is kapag naka-mrt ako pero pag gantong byahe byahe na. hindi hehe :)) nakakalito pa.

So aun, I rode a bus at tamang observe lang sa paligid.

ASTIG. 12mn ang dami pa ring bus at sasakyan.

how I wish sa Metro Manila na lang kami nakatira .LOL.

aun mejo natraffic ng konti

at napahinto sa tapat ng SOGO.

And there, I saw a couple na lumabas at mgkaholding hands. Siguro nag-tong-its sila sa loob o kaya naglaro ng inbetween. at inantok na sila kaya naisipan na nilang magout at sa bahay na lang matulog. Maaari.

Anyway, bumaba na ako ng Boni. Nag akyat baba sa stairs until I reached the

GA Sky Suites Tower. I texted my friend na bumaba na.

And ayun I saw them..We headed up sa 11th flr. ng condo unit.

Ang saya . tambay with friends :) .

tamang foodtrip. nagbyahe ng malayo para makitulog. Palaboy eh.

anyway we were five girls.

And all of them are 20+ na

one is 28, then 26, then 22 at 24 y.o ata yung isa.

While ako 18 :) and all of them are working na except for one.

Well actually I'm having a good time making friends with those who are older than I am.

Ang dami ko ng friends na mas matatanda sakin around 30+ i think may clique kasi kami..

Cool eh. Ang dami na nilang experience sa buhay and I'm learning alot from them.

I don't call them ate na nga eh. Ayaw nila eh. Parang feeling ko tuloy mga kaedad ko lang sila. Kasi ang cool lang na ung things na kaya nilang gawin kaya ko rin. hehe. :) and they were like sisters to me.

Kasi 16yo pa lang talaga ko, wniwish ko na na sana 20+ na ko para nagagawa ko na yung mga things na gusto kong gawin without asking for my parents permission at tapos independent na.

Parang feeling ko tuloy ang sarap magkaroon ng work .

You have your own money and hindi ka na "pabigat" sa parents mo.

huhu 2012 pa ko mkkgrad then review pa for NLE then volunteer for experience.

Ang tagal pa. I can't wait. ;))

So there, just call it a night.

So I'll continue.

As I entered the Mrt train. Sobrang dami ng tao as in siksikan unlike sa lrt2 right? makakaupo ka pa eh, sa mrt sobrang parang sardinas. na kahit ang laki kong babae binabalya balya at tinutulak tulak lang ako na parang bola ng mga pmapasok. WTF.

Anyway,

I was wearing my school uniform that day. Biglaang lakad kasi.

Eh I remembered, bagong kabit lang yung retainer ko.. (konek ng uniform sa retainer? LOL)

hindi ko pa masyadong mapronounce ang kahit anung words na may

"S" at "CH" nabubulol pa ko as in.

Eh next station Shaw Blvd na eh dun ako bababa.

eh diba nga sobrang sardinas kami sa loob ng mrt train as in wla na tlagang space. (that was 4pm na already.)

So I need to say, EXCUSE ME PO ..

kung hindi baka isipin bastos ako o kaya

baka lumagpas ako hindi ako mkalabas at umabot ako ng Boni station WTF.

So while still inside, I kept on practicing sa sarili ko,

saying excuse me, excuse me, excuse me..

hahah kakaasar bulul.

Tenen .. biglang

ngsalita na ang operator ng tren

"Shaw boulevard station, Shaw blvd station please blah blah blah ..."

Bababa na ako..

ohmaygash kelangan mklabas ako..

so ang sinabi ko na lang para playing safe :)

"sssssssss po, sssssssss po" .. XD .

ngmurmur na lang ako.

As I was falling in line for buying a ticket in the Mrt station, specifically Cubao station, I saw this lady, she was standing there while repeating these lines..

“GoodAfternoon po. Donation lang po para sa redcross.”

Maraming beses na akong sumakay ng mrt at lagi silang andun and yet ngayon ko lang sila napansin.

I saw the lady’s face. tagaktak siya ng pawis and nakatayo lang siya I don’t know kung ilang hours na at anong malay ko pa kung hindi pa siya kumakain.

While ako. Napaka impatient na kasi ang haba ng pila sobrang init pinapaypayan ang sarili ko dahil tagaktak na rin ako ng pawis. At hindi na maipinta ang mukha ko.

Dahil ayokong naiinitan. Sino ba namang my gusto tama?

Pero still ang babaeng ito walang bahid irita or pagsusungit pa rin ang mukha. She still tend to smile to every person na nakapila just to ask for a little amount of money.

But hell yeah, but why am I saying this? do I care? what if I do? So what? right?

Maybe it doesn’t make sense to others but for me it does.

Imagine, they were standing there for hours repeating their lines over and over again. Nagaantay na may pumansin sa kanila at maghulog na kaunting barya sa bawat taong bumibili ng ticket sa mrt. And kung tutuusin, hindi pa nga sa kanila mapupunta yun eh. Dahil sa RedCross yun. Anung malay ko kung volunteer pa sila.

but then what do they get? Nothing. Just nothing.

Deadma. Kibber. Hindi sila napapansin. Kung meron man iilan lang.

Well, kasama ko dati sa mga hindi pumapansin sa kanila. Yung sukli ko from buying the ticket imbes na ihulog ko sa lata nila. bnubulsa ko pa. Pambibili ko ng mentos or maxx. Fcuk. I realized that I was a selfish cow.

Pero that day. I was strucked sa mga bagay na naobserbahan ko..

Napakaswerte ko (natin), I’m not in their place na tumatayo ng ilang hours tinitiis ang gutom, uhaw, pawis, at pagod para lang sa kaunting barya na hindi rin naman sila ang magbebenefit.

At ako eto, Ang tangi ko lang gagawin upang makatulong ay maghulog ng barya. Kaunting barya na maaring makapagsalba ng buhay ng iba. Hindi pa ntin magawa.

And there. A smile formed in my face.

Kaya nung turn ko na..

As I dropped the coins into that can. I felt at ease. Hindi nasayang ang pagngiti ni ate at ang kanyang laway sa pagsasalita.

And the thought na nakatulong pa ko sa mga nangagailangan.

Ang sarap pakinggan ng

*maraming salamat po*

simpleng salita.

simpleng bagay.

pero kapag tinamaan ka.

Ang laking bagay. Tagos puso.

Magaan sa pakiramdam ;)